Sunday, 14 April 2013

Book... Cover... Oh, Stop That!

My motto is "Fronti nulla fides", which roughly translates into "Don't judge a book by its cover".
As I mentioned in an earlier post, in CSI, I quite liked the character of Grissom because he always tried to see the whole spectrum of possibilities before he tried to understand what happened.
Most people seeing someone hugging the walls, half-bent and shaking like a leaf on the street will only imagine that this person is drunk. Most people will walk faster and not look at that person too closely, because he or she has to be a drunkard, but... what about that person having a heart-attack? Fever? Ruptured appendix?... Or even malaria or whatever?

Most people jump to conclusions. It's easy - and some people can be so sure of themselves and of their view of the world that their judgement simply has to be the universal truth.
People love clichés and stereotypes because they're reassuring (and they sometimes allow some arrogant bipeds to shove their beliefs down other people's throats).

It really bugs me when people stop at appearances and chose the easiest explanation about something - anything, really.
And yet, since we're not going to change our fellow bipeds, it can be useful to see how this works and to use appearances strategically...

You know the drill, this is when I'm going to explain why I'm writing about this particular topic right now.
The thing is, I've put henna on my hair today to make it look red again.
Eh? Why is she talking about that? I hear you think.
Simple. In this particular story, I'm the book and my cover was being judged, all because I'm seriously de-pigmenting.
I'm not old, my skin looks rather good, I dress in a reasonably "modern" way... I'm not pretty, but I'm okay. Average. Normal.
Yet, since I caught the silly virus that I mentioned in yet another post, my hair's mostly turned white. It's a rather nice silvery kind of white, and I shouldn't care about it - and I don't, but... I used henna today because I've noticed that, as my roots showed more and more and the fully white hair lost their previous henna-produced colour [Oh, and I can't afford to wait for the henna to disappear fully because... my hair reaches my waist, and it'd be just too incredibly long - and weird looking], a few people in my life were beginning to treat me differently - and I mean that in quite a radical way. All that because of the way my hair looked.
Since I've got a few decades until I can put on a "lil' old lady" costume, I'm going to use the silliness of the bipeds around me. I'm not bowing to pressure; I'm using people's silliness in order to manipulate them.
Of course, I could go on letting all of my hair reclaim its - now - natural colour and not give a damn, but that would mean having to work extra hard to have idiots look past the hair colour... and life's frigging too short for that kind of grief (all the more since the henna thing doesn't take long and does the job).

There are many things that I'd never do, even to use elementary strategy on plonkers (I never bought into the idea of "no pain, no gain")... But tiny little things that use bipeds' love for stereotypes... Hell, yes!

Friday, 5 April 2013

Message to Some Early Birds, from a Bat

Once upon a time, I could get up early.
First, it was when I was in prep school and in my first years of college; when I had to be in class at 8:30 or 9 am (on the other side of town). And I did it.
Then, it was work. Back when I was in the (not) delightful school that I nicknamed bedlam, I had to be in the suburbs at 8:30 am (that meant getting up at 6 am and leaving home at 7:15 am).
I did it.
If work was not currently blissfully scheduled in the afternoons and evenings, I'd do it again. Because I'm not lazy. I'd be properly knackered, but I'd do it.

The problem is:
a - my classes are all after tea time, so I get home late, have dinner late, prepare my next lesson or mark essays or whatever very late, and then... I edit for work, or I write (this blog, short stories, poems, plays, novels,...). My schedule is afternoon/evening night (let's face it, I seldom go to bed before 3 am).
b - I've developed a delayed sleep phase disorder, and that insomnia's little cousin is a pain in the... neck. Since my nerve froze (see previous post on the topic), my sleep pattern has been utterly mad. I can go to bed at 10 pm if I want; I'll toss and turn until 4 am - at best.

Once I fall asleep, I sleep well, but, for the moment, I go to sleep when the birds wake up... and this brings me to another variety of birds: bipeds who get up at the crack of dawn, look at you as if you were from outer space and think you're lazy idiots for not being caffeinated and ready to embrace the day at 6 am.
I know people who think that "the early bird catches the worm" is the only way to live, and I know that I'm not officially working nights (after all, I could edit and write in the morning, right?).
But... this is the way I am (for the moment, at least).
Am I hurting anyone by getting up at noon or 3pm? No.
Can I do otherwise without slowing down my nerve healing? Probably not.
Am I lucky that my work allows me to do that? Hell, yes! And I know it, ta.
Am I being judged for the way I live? Yes. Just this morning (my morning), a relative woke me up, and I lied about that because I could feel on the phone that I was being judged (side note: according to my relatives, I'm not really ill, so I should just be quiet and be like the rest of the world - their world, not mine).

I could end this by saying: live and let live, but I'll use something that popped into my poor head years ago...

The early bat catches the gnat.

*curtseys & hops off the soap box*